Week Two Ashtanga practice

As week two closed I have moved on one posture to navasana, and in fact having a little go in Bujupindasana too (but not quite there)

Knee pain returned this week. Apparently this comes from a tightness in the hips and is probably not related to my old injury which caused some osteoporosis.
But by Friday it was agony to even bend my knee. So, of course I refer to my physio, Dr.Google and can find many articles on this. So, after reading some articles, in particular this one - link to article elephant journal I have decided to take heed to these words:

'Progression is not the attainment of the posture. It’s the deepening of your understanding of the process. It’s your relationship to the process. It’s your state of being and presence on the mat'

The words resonate with me, and this is something that I will try to remember, when I get stressed on the mat because of physical pain that is hindering my progression. I will remember that there is something that I need to understand and work through and to stay present on the mat. I never would have expected to complete the primary series whilst here, and in fact have got further than I imagined in two weeks and at one point on Friday I felt quite low and sad about this. I'm pretty sure that this is because of the ego, and that I want to be able to learn as much as I can whilst here. And also to continue my practice when I leave Mysore until I can complete the wholes series (luckily after Supta Konoasana I find it all physically achievable!)

So there we are, no great philosophical ramblings today, just an update on where I'm at, and a reminder from Sharath in conference that the asanas (postures) are only there so that the mind can be steadied and calmed to prepare you for pranayama and ultimately meditation. 

not my knee! picture taken also from Elephant Journal 

End of Week 1

I can hardly believe a whole week has flown by so quickly!

So after my hard first day, day 2 was even harder, as you would expect the muscles started to complain, especially after being hit with a 4.30 start, which is really 4.15 as 'shala time' is 15 minutes early.

There are a few aspects of this unearthly hour I really love, it's very quite, calm and cooler. The shala has a lovely calm energy about it, all you can hear is the ocean like sound of the ujayi breath.
Saraswathi comes in a little after us and we have the opening prayer with her, which I am hoping to learn by next week, although it is becoming familiar already.

As for practice, well apart from wishing the series didn't have so many bleepin' vinyasas (read chattaranga specifically) I am really enjoying it. I am moving further and deeper and am happy to have assists from Saraswathi and her assistants in Marichyasana B, C and even an attempt at D.

I'm wondering if both belly and boobs* are hindering the elusive twist in D, and I also do not enjoy the twist in twisted extended side angle (Parivrta Parsvakonasana) it feels like I can't breath calmly and steadily.

*both of mine, whilst a dress size 10, are considered 'large' in Ashtanga terms....but more on this another day.

A few points of note from practice this week - I'm trying to stay focused and leave ego out of the shala, I think I am doing quite well, I can relate this feeling to being a beginner surfer and seeing all the people 'out the back' catching and ripping every wave. Everyone has to start somewhere. Sometime in the line up, especially when I was in Indonesia, or even Putsborough, I felt like I didn't belong and I was getting in the way.
Well I feel a little like this, but then I 'have a word with myself' and think, who cares? everyone is probably so hung up in their own insecurities to worry I am not in the right place and I am only here doing doing this to deepen my practice, learn at the source from one of the Guru's and be able to use the experience to enhance my teaching.  (not to prove anything to anyone)

Today is a rest day, and my body is ready for that rest. We have conference in a short while with Sharath, so this will be the first day I see him 'in the flesh' !!! I am really looking forward to this experience.
Tomorrow is lead class so that will be another new experience and then Monday back to 4.30am practice.

So many things to love about Ashtanga, specifically Mysore style, but I will have to post this another time, including my thoughts on chanting, so for now I will leave you with a picture of the sunsetting last night as I haven't had the time or inclination to take any yoga selfies yet!!!

Waiting, Worrying and Aching!

It's only one week until my departure, yep, things are getting real!

I'm currently housebound waiting for the courier to deliver my passport and Indian Visa once that is done then all I have left to 'worry' about is the new injury I acquired yesterday (more on this in a mo) and whether I will be able to lose my ego in Mysore and not care that I can't do half lotus.....

So, a big part of yoga is letting go, and letting go of the EGO. I read this lovely post on Instagram earlier -
Woman says to Buddha ' I want Happiness' He replies - 'get rid of I for that is the ego, get rid of want for that is desire, and all you are left with is happiness'

Soo....I no longer will want to get into half lotus, I will endeavour to let go of the ego (the inner voice over) and think 'so what' ?? So what if I am worrying, and aching and spinning myself into a tizzy over this pose. Practice and it will come.
So what if I can't hold my headstand for the full 25 breaths, and so what if I forget the sequence. I am going to LEARN.

So yeah, so what if I pulled a muscle (or something) in my Lattimus Dorsi yesterday, today I did a gentle practice (not Ashtanga) with some Yin style hip openers (to work towards that elusive lotus) and guess what, I felt ok with that.

So, here is my 'humble' child's pose to say, Mysore I am almost coming for you, and I accept where I am today, and where I will be tomorrow, and that's ok. Let that sh*t go! Lose the ego, practice and all is coming.....to be continued!!